nicolee. 
Day 110 | 04.20.2010
Mood: fkgjfdgkfdg.
Currently Listening To: GLEE!
Wearing: Flannel and Skinny Jeans.
Fact: I started new meds, and I feel fake. I feel like, I’m watching myself outside my body, and my body is all happy. But, my inner self is still the same, sad girl she’s always been. Ugh. Anyways, so, that guy from saturday. I’ve been talking to him a lot lately (not much today though), and I think I kind of like him. I don’t know. My moods are all fkjsdffsdkg.
Day 109 | 04.19.2010
Mood: Eh…?
Currently Listening To: Zzzz | The Cab
Wearing: This Prov Shirt and Skinny Jeans.
Fact: School was boring, and I’m too lazy to do anything today. Ugh.
Day 108 | 04.18.2010
Mood: Stuck in the Middle.
Currently Listening To: Sick of Tonight | Weatherstar
Wearing: All Time BLOWS Shirt and Shorts.
Fact: Last night was great. I made up with my old friend. I saw people that I’ve missed for months. I had a guy hit on me, and I’m still talking to him. Today, I’m just relaxing. Got my 14Gs too. :)
Day 107 | 04.17.2010
Mood: Excited.
Currently Listening To: Boys Will Be Boys | Every Avenue
Wearing: Dress.
Fact: Today is my friend’s, Danielle, sweet sixteen. I’m excited. I haven’t seen her since the summer. I hope tonight is amazing.
Day 106 | 04.16.2010
Mood: Alive.
Currently Listening To: Waste Myself | This Providence
Wearing: TWLOHA Shirt.
Fact: Today was the This Providence concert at the School of Rock. I went with Teresa and Danielle, and I got to see Megan for the first time in months. The concert was so much fun. I got a setlist and a pick from David Blaise. I needed this concert. I feel alive. I need more concerts. I Don’t want to lose this feeling.
Day 105 | 04.15.2010
Mood: Relaxed and Sleepy.
Currently Listening To: She’s A Lady | Forever The Sickest Kids
Wearing: Pajamas.
Fact: Tomorrow. Tomorrow, I can be happy. Tomorrow, I can see Megan, Danielle, Teresa, and all my other friends going. Tomorrow, I can finally feel alive.
Day 104 | 04.14.2010
Mood: …
Currently Listening To: Last Thing On Your Mind | Lights
Wearing: Dress.
Fact: Can I have one day when I don’t want to cry my eyes out? Can I have one day when I don’t want to feel like I want to die? Can I have one day when I’m happy? Whatever happiness is these days.
Day 103 | 04.13.2010
Mood: Tired.
Currently Listening To: The Hell Back Home | Every Avenue
Wearing: Pajamas.
Fact: I’m starting to get tired of everything. Life is boring or stressful. I hate it.
Day 102 | 04.12.2010
Mood: Ugh.
Currently Listening To: Dear Maria, Count Me In | All Time Low
Wearing: Denim Skirt.
Fact: This school project got me thinking about everything that has happened in my life. All the things I miss. All the things I need. Oh. And how much I love Pokemon.
Day 101 | 04.11.2010
Mood: Thoughtful.
Currently Listening To: The Girls A Straight Up Hustler | All Time Low
Wearing: Flannel and Shorts.
Fact: I hung out with my best friend, Danielle, today. I had an amazing time with her. I love her. She’s my best friend. My first real one. I don’t know what I would do without her.
